Sooner or later it comes down to Fate...
Well, what it basically comes down to is: Can we pull it off? Knowing my luck in general? No. Knowing my luck lately? Yes. Knowing his luck in general? Yes. Knowing his luck lately? No. Yeah, that doesn't really make sense to me either. O_o I guess it just depends on how smart we are about it and how much luck both of us have. *sigh* And then I have to decide if I even want to or not. Well, look at it from my angle: It's a crazy idea. Steve and I came up with it. Others have tried and failed, although I'm sure I'll be the first to admit it's not the same thing because theirs was done on completely different grounds. But still... putting faith in that place seems bad. There are so many things that could (and will) go wrong. Unless I go at it with a completely different attitude. Spontainious-like. WOO-HOO!! <-- Just like that! All happy and giddy and amazed and shit. But... but... but...
It's a big risk right before everything could possibly fall through. I'm not saying it will, I'm just saying it could, because no matter how much I ask him to not, he will, and I'll be stuck worrying about it. And people will be like "You're too stressed out, it's only September!" and I'll be like "Hellz yeah! >.<"
*sigh*
I hate to start having a negative outlook on the school year already, but that's what's happening. It's already the start of August (on Sunday, I mean), which is far too close to September for comfort. June was stressful, but that's over. July was... interesting, to say the least. Perhaps not the most static of months. Very dynamic for various reasons. *sigh* I like work, it doesn't make me think. I'm too focused on work to think, usually. That's good. But I have to think. Because I brought it up. And now he's all like "w00 h00 that would r0x0rs" (in so many words) and I'm like "eh-he... i was just kidding, not really, sorta. >.> <.< >.<" I said I'd tell him tomorrow, which is today. And I planned on thinking about it last night, only I had this killer headache so I fell asleep until 2:30 in the morning on the couch instead of thinking.
Maybe it's time for a pro-con list... So, do I list the things that could possibly go wrong as one or as how many there really are? Listing them all, I can already tell would give me soooooooo many cons. Maybe we list those as one:
Pro:
time
space
daring
romantic
memory
Con:
things that could go wrong
might not be worth it 3 weeks later
risky
That's all I feel like writing. That's obviously not a good pro-con list, to outsiders, but it helps me. Sorta. *sigh* I've got a few hours left. Lemme think about it some more.
It's a big risk right before everything could possibly fall through. I'm not saying it will, I'm just saying it could, because no matter how much I ask him to not, he will, and I'll be stuck worrying about it. And people will be like "You're too stressed out, it's only September!" and I'll be like "Hellz yeah! >.<"
*sigh*
I hate to start having a negative outlook on the school year already, but that's what's happening. It's already the start of August (on Sunday, I mean), which is far too close to September for comfort. June was stressful, but that's over. July was... interesting, to say the least. Perhaps not the most static of months. Very dynamic for various reasons. *sigh* I like work, it doesn't make me think. I'm too focused on work to think, usually. That's good. But I have to think. Because I brought it up. And now he's all like "w00 h00 that would r0x0rs" (in so many words) and I'm like "eh-he... i was just kidding, not really, sorta. >.> <.< >.<" I said I'd tell him tomorrow, which is today. And I planned on thinking about it last night, only I had this killer headache so I fell asleep until 2:30 in the morning on the couch instead of thinking.
Maybe it's time for a pro-con list... So, do I list the things that could possibly go wrong as one or as how many there really are? Listing them all, I can already tell would give me soooooooo many cons. Maybe we list those as one:
Pro:
time
space
daring
romantic
memory
Con:
things that could go wrong
might not be worth it 3 weeks later
risky
That's all I feel like writing. That's obviously not a good pro-con list, to outsiders, but it helps me. Sorta. *sigh* I've got a few hours left. Lemme think about it some more.
