Spill your energy for this one, shining moment...

Whom could pay so much for one, awesome glimpse into the window that is a mirror of our emotions? Can you stand forever with me on the brink of a fall and not have your heart skip a beat? My children, my children, if my dreams be prophetic I offer you all I own in sorrow and grief and sympathy for this injustice. In balance, the metal of my mind bends to those words you speak so dearly. Can I change, from this material, built world of dungeons and walls and lights to the lost, imagined one of space and flowers and dark? I choke on the words I can not say and hold back the useless tears, which fall to betray me, to rust this porcein doll. A girl, a doll... A boy, a toy... In our innocence, we played with such objects, mindless games of youth and innocence and imagination. In our growth, we became those objects, mindless games of age and experience and curiousity.

The Devil can not keep us here forever; one day we shall trick him into looking at the mirror as we open the window.
Our God can not leave us here forever; one day we shall beg him to open the doors as we knock down the wall.
Our temptation comes not from others, but from the ourselves can not understand and just want to know.
Our redemption comes not from ourself, but from the one who already know what it is like to fall.

Miss you. Pen pal. Ask me. Book club. Thank you.

Eating CANDY HEARTS, if you couldn't tell. I luff these things. TASTY COLORED CHALK! So, what's today hold?? Today holds me writing a religion paper between 3000 and 5000 words on the various sects of Daosim because I put it off all vacation to screw around with my friends... *ahem* No pun intended---ANYWAY!

Yah, so vacation's almost over. *sigh* It was a helluva lotta fun, even if we didn't finish the movie. Where was the plot?? God, who knows?? But yeah, I need to re-consider so much in my life, mainly the Barry situation, cause apparently he "doesn't know me." Maybe SAM could help me, she knows him better than I do, I guess. Sam, if you read this just let him know that I'm still the same person. I think he hates me. SHIIIIIIIIT IT'S NOT FAIR! I feel so immature right now, it's sickening...

In other news, I can't wait to get back to school and find out how badly I did on my math project, turn in my crap-ass religion report, and start worrying about colleges. Maybe I should get offline and do my homework. Sounds good. Lemme make up a quiz, first, though:

Name: Rochelle Lisa Devault
Age: 16
Location: I'ma no-where MAN! ..erm... woman.

Last time you...
Hugged someone: Hugged Meg good-bye.
Rode a bike: O_O I dunno. A while ago. Prolly last summer.
Played a game: Soul Caliber. Or... Scattergories, if we're talking non-video game.
Got angry: Today, after reading Steve's LJ.
Were insulted: ...once again, today after reading Steve's LJ.
Felt helpless: Talking to Sean... >.<
Skipped school: Week before midterms to study.
Snuck out of the house: ...never.
Broke a heart: Kelton's.
Had your heart broken: ...last night? night before? night before that? every day now for nearly 7 months?
Kissed someone: last night.
Watched TV: Seinfeild two nights ago.
Listened to music: Right now, whatever my dad's playing in the other room.

What would do if...
You had one million dollars: Invest it!
You were lost in a city: Prolly walk around and around until I got bored... then used my trusty cell phone to get my parents to get me a hotel room somewhere.
You were stuck on an island: PARTY! WELCOME TO THE CARRIBEAN, LOVE!
Your best friend betrayed you: Prolly get mad, then forgive them later.
You betrayed your best friend: Prolly get mad at myself, then forgive myself later. O_o
A war started in your country: Gah! I'd run away with my friends...
An asteroid was going to hit earth: ...shit, I dunno. Try to have sex with all the people I never got to? Write a book (really fast...), screw school! ;D
Your school burned down: Screw school, again?
You got pregnant(or got someone pregnant): Not get an abortion. And I'd try to keep the child.
You discovered drugs in your sibling's room: DESTOY THEM! I wouldn't tell my parents, but I'd have a long talk wiht my sister. Not that she would ever do drugs, so this question really doesn't apply.
Your friend had a drinking problem: Talk to them... drinking doesn't help!
Your parents had a drinking problem: Again, talk to them.

Random questions and confessions...
Do you like cupcakes: Yes.
Have you ever snorted pudding: Well, considering I MADE that question up, yah.
Are you gay, bi, or straight: I dunno... ask me in a few years.
Are you a virgin: Yes.
What color socks are you wearing: White.
How many states have you visited: 20? I think. That's a lot!
Who was your first kiss: Pat
Who was your last kiss: Alex
What is you biggest regret: Not keeping in touch with Kelton or Becky.
What's your deepest, darkest secret: ... wouldn't you like to know??
Who was "the one who got away": Hmm... that's a good question!

Gasoline dreams and medicine fears...

Youth hangs limply as rags from her fragile frame,
She hopes for a future, but she still needs a name,
Got nothing but sorrow when all she asked for was fame,
Looks for a reason, but there's no one to blame.


Hey!! OMG!! I haven't updated in nearly a month. Ugh. Well, things are going pretty well, you'd be amazed, actually, that I'm still alive after this week. My MATH PROJECT was due. Yah, that went over well... not. Anyway, working on my religion paper next. God, don't I love IB?? Hahahahaha...

OMG I had so much fun in MUN today! ^_^ I love that club! NO THROWING PAPER AIRPLANES, DAMN IT!! THAT'S CONSIDERED A VERY LARGE OFFENSE DURING MODERADUM (or whatever it's callled)!!!

Anyway, tomorrow is FRIDAY THE 13TH, which also happens to be the date of Fantasia! ^_^ Going home with Ming, getting ready, eating, dancing, getting icecream, sleeping at Ming's, going to Steve's with Daine, and TRAINING!! Yay, I really need to work on my weapons skillz, I know. Let's hope I don't bring down the whole move. Haha! I think that's it. Anyway, I only really opened my blog so I could write, considering it's Valentine's Day soon and I should work on my love poems for all the guys I love. Mainly one, but shhh. His girl would kill me where I stood if I confess my love. MY LOVE, MY LOVE!! As I've been saying all week:

"I'll wait for you forever!"

God, that was a good episode. I think I'll watch that tonight, cause I'm boooooooredededed. Hehehe... Then Smackdown. I love John Cena. Can't go wrong with John Cena.


An eternity could pass by,
And I'd still be here for you.
You can curse my name,
Never say goodbye,
But I'd still be here for you.


No.
Just plain no.
Bad poem!! BAD!!
WORK DAMN YOU!!

Let's try again, shall we??

Untested Reflex
I feel as if I'm in a prison of plastic
No metal to cut myself
No glass to break
No escape...

I feel as if I'm in a different univese
No falling stars to wish on
No sun to light my sky
No where to fly...

I feel as if I'm shouting to the moon
No one around to hear me
Nothing to cause an echo
No where to go...

I feel as if I'm on a map that doesn't exist
No road signs to point my way
No way to know the distance
No existance...

I feel as if I'm going to wait forever
No man to make love to me
No souls to comfort me
Nothing but my misery...