I realize I never began... Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end. Melt away.

I love Sarah. I never realized how much I miss talking to her until after school today. Damn my classes. I wish I was in a few of hers. Anyway... this is going to be an angry rant:

YOU ABSOLUTE BITCH! You can't tell me the damn truth, can you? You just can't. You never could. This doesn't matter, though, because I don't fucking care enough to do anything, not that I could if I wanted to. I'm a damn forgiving person and that's the problem here, isn't it? Gah. I'm not even going to say a word to you about it. Just don't write it off as some stupid statement that "What she doesn't know can't hurt her..." That's rediculous. I'll find out no matter what, I always do. And in the end, I just wish I knew the truth from the beginning, but who the Hell cares now? Bitch, bitch, bitch... You can't manipulate everyone you come in contact with, even though you try damn hard. And you WONDER why no one likes you!! Next time I'm there listening to your lies just remember that I'm not believing a WORD OF THEM and try sparing me your false form of friendship or love or whatever before I throw up from the absolute irony of it all. Grr... I just hate having the same sins you do.

Note: I don't want any of you getting the idea that that statement had anything to do with you because it didn't. And don't ask me what it was about either. I'm not going to answer. *ahem*

Midterms were okay. I was disappointed with French and econ, but whatever. In math I got an 83, religion was 93, French was 76, Econ was a 70. -__- Then bio I got an 89 and for my english thesis I got an A-, so not too bad. I'm still pissed about econ, though. I had my first TOK class today, which was pretty fun. He said the first book we're reading is The Giver. *dies* I've read that book almost as many times as I've read the Harry Potter books, if not more. Lois Lowrey(sp?) has sooo much of my admiration for that story, even though it's so short. We're not analyzing it the way we do our English books, just looking at the concepts and thoughts and whatever about it. Really niffty. I can probably quote the whole thing, anyway.

Gah, I really hope we don't have school tomorrow. I'm so lazy.

Wrapped in your lies,
Protection from the cold kiss of winter.
Sheilded by your words,
I let them under my skin like a splinter.

Tears of sin, friends of sin...
All this time you've forgotten to begin,
But you'll always be forgiven.

Trapped in your lies,
Betrayed to the cold kiss of winter.
Abandoned by your words,
They slide under my skin like a splinter.

*achoo* Gasoline from my nose??

Who's that jumpin out tha sky? It's R-E-Y Mysterio!
Here we go!!
You're the best, despite your size. At the first
look, it doesn't seem like you'll stand a
chance, but you'll show them. Big challenges
don't faze you, and you've got the courage to
face the hard things in life.
Maybe you've got a lot of energy, or a lot of
courage, or maybe you just like to jump around
a lot and do crazy things.
Your theme song is annoying if you listen to it too
much.


Which professional wrestler are you? By Erikman!
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Yeah. That pretty much suits me. ^_^

Bloody MIDTERMS!!

I post weird poetic stuff no one understands


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True dat. BtW: my LiveJournal is: http://www.livejournal.com/users/poetyouknowit
So, go there and catch up on all my other online web log sort of stuff. Hah, well, midterms start on Friday!! I only have 2 more nights to study. I'm really hoping tomorrow is a snow day so I can stay home and memorize bio for hours on end. Yes, that would be a positive sort of thing before my exam. Of course, it'll never happen. But I like to think it could. ^_^

I haven't picked a poem for the contest yet. I might just edit Revolutionary Child up a bit and send that one in. I'll see what Mr. Potter thinks first, though. We had a college meeting Tuesday and I bet a writing award would look super spiffy on an application, so I'm really hoping my writing makes a good impression. I've been making little snips of poems, quotable lines and stuff all week. Especially for away messages and whatnot. It's rather ammusing that I can't just sit down and write those out as a perfect poem. Steve said Blind Ecstasy was a little too wordy for him. Hmmm... here's what I wrote a moment ago:

You've taken my heart, my soul and my trust.
I hold onto my spirit, but kill it with lust.
Chain my wrists so I can not hide away,
Forever be silent of our passionate play.

I'd call it Mysterious Play, but I think that's just stretching it a bit much. I should only steal lines from very good, but badly-translated Hellsing episodes and names for movies from Blue Seed. Stealing from just BAD SHOWS in general is a no-no. Oh my yes, that is who I am. So, hope for snow. Please?? Oh, and did anyone think anything of Drivel and Prate? I'm assuming you don't even know what those mean. That's where vocab last year becomes really useful. *sigh* I almost miss sophmore year. It was a lot less stressful.

Oh, and I'm only ranked 24 in the class. >.< Andrea was 7th!! And Ali was SECOND in her year! God, I hope IB grades bring my rank up A LOT before applications go out. *crosses fingers* Okay, time to study and work on my English paper.

Poetry time, folks!

Blind Ecstasy
Who is mesmerized by your marmalade words,
dripping with sweetness not meant for these ears?
Myself and more velvet fantasies travel
through water-carved ravines, inscribed by subconscious tears.

You traded all pure clarity in exchange for this ecstasy
and chose lies in place of evanecsent trust,
But lost more than just energy, testing these wounds.
Is healing less important than satiating lust?

Wow, that's REALLY not complete. But I'm REALLY tired. Note the time, it's like nearly 1 in the morning. And I can't write with a hurting head and an empty stomach. I'll work on this later. Tell me if you like it so far, though, please!! I need feedback for the contest, if I'm going to enter. Most of mine stuff is too personal, though. >.< There are so many that people have said they really liked. My sister loves Familiar Stranger, a bunch of people like Revolutionary Child, I like Anger Management(even though it's so badly written), and I just read Standing Still, which is really good too... GAH!!

Here's one I think no one's read ever:
Drivel and Prate
It's all such drivel and prate... Words and words, a fragile state.
In my mind play war drums... My living bread, your simple crumbs.
I listen to all your harsh words... Hear nothing save the tune of songbirds.
Figure of an angel dancing mysteriously... Music inside my head plays curiously.

It's all such drivel and prate... Words and words, a fragile state.
Empty goblets, missing the wine... Unimaginable fate, twisting twine.
Cracking glass warps the outside... I'm counting my blessings and counting on pride.
It's not all lies that hold up this fort... Laughter also chimes loud and short.

It's all such drivel and prate... Words and words, a fragile state.
Spinning mobile of stars and moons... Breeze blows to turn, to play children tunes.
Wooden carving painted with such care... Can burn and sting with cold dispare.
Running out of time, the end draws near... Who will whistle and bite their fear?

It's all such drivel and prate... Words and words, a fragile state.

6 Degrees of Separation...

Well, children, I just found out some AWESOME news about two weird relations to Orlando Bloom. I'm going to make big deal about it and squeal like a girl (wait, I AM a girl...)!!!!!!!!11one. Well, first of all, my life-long friend Andrea who attends Johns Hopkins University told me today that where she goes to school is where Sean Astin's father works. Sean Astin played Sam in The Lord of the Rings, so of course he would know Orlando Bloom quite well from the 14 months they spent together in New Zealand. So, in that line it's Andrea, older Astin, Sean Astin, and then Olando. Only four degrees of separation there! ^_^ Second, I'm friends with Meghan whose cousin is married to a man who went to school with Viggo Mortensen who also worked with Orlando Bloom on The Lord of the Rings. So, in THAT line it's Meghan, her cousin, her cousin's husband, Viggo, then Orlando! ^_^ I think it's really awesome, for some reason, that in a span of 4 hours I found two weird connections to him in two totally unrelated situations.

Erik's making me out to be STUPID now that I flipped out about that. *sigh* It's just not fair!! Well, Daine will be happy that she's got that weird connection to Viggo, I suppose. And then add another connection onto those last two and it's like, whoa a bunch of connections with Johnny Depp as well. Whoa. And Erik just said his friend knows Garcia Marquez, who I consider an awesome author and aspire to be like someday. *dies* LUCKY PEOPLE!! I wanna meet all my favorite authors and just TALK to them about writing and this and that. And especially about how to work symbolism into stories and how to develop characters into three demensional humans that my readers can know and love, not just parts of a story on a page... *sighs again* I'll never be able to write like that. I'm too... I dunno, disatisfied. I wrote a REALLY short story and actually finished it. It was only like 4 pages, but I suppose it was my first finished piece. Weird. Now here's something sad to think about:

Thanks to our 6 degrees of separation, we're not as alone as we may think we are... Thanks to our 6 degrees of separation, we're more alone than we thought.